The life that i live here shows me that i have too look out for me and only me

i have been here in Ireland long enough, i am fed up with all kinds of stuff when i come back i gonna drink till i cant get back up. it seems that you would only care for him. i feel lost on the path where i used to walk now. i just came back tonight walking in dublin wandering streets that i dont know, with people that looks like they gonna kill me. if i died, i wonder if you have ever care. i feel like i have no soul. i thought i was wrong but was right yet wrong.. sigh... life soo hard fine! i am gonna live life my way now and no one is gonna change how i live....

Sigh

Hate my life here... everyone treats me so different till now... and noone treats me like an equal even sean... what happen to the saying about I'm your bro i always got your back... sigh i dunno if i am going to do stupid things soon... is there anyone that can help me... fuck man the life here is soo shit...

Love Song, by Me.. its not perfect but i tried..

I fell for you right from the start
I can see you in my heart
Even though i'm not there
Would you still care

My love for you is so unreal
Remembering the time it could be sealed
But nothing happen because i was shy
knowing you with another guy

The days to weeks to years been gone
My feelings ain't all that strong
I felt like i lost an important piece
Which make me feel i am about to ceast to exist

You were the one i fell in Love
I knew that because i saw two doves
I wish i can be with you
To show you that my feelings are true

My love for you is so unreal
So can you tell me whats the deal
Whenever i see the light shining from your eyes
It shows me that that your having fun with Mies

The days that have past me by
It makes me feel like i'm about to die
Knowing that i can see you smile
And i can say, "it's been awhile"

There will be improvements in my song in the future...